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Well overdue. [25 Feb 2009|07:36pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Not too great. Buuut, whoop
there it is.

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[08 Feb 2009|10:27pm]
I cut'ed my hair. Again. lol Tania & Nicole, I went with that really old entries last photo. But shorter piece-y bangs

OH. And now I want all my hair back.
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Help? [09 Nov 2008|06:13pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Okay, so for anyone who actually still reads this, I need some feedback, help, ideas, anything.

Something along the lines of::::::

What do you think????? 

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The search continues... [13 Sep 2008|05:59pm]
Finding a job is a lot harder than I expected.

School's great, who would have known I'd be a nerd in college & proud of it!
Been busy getting settled in took a bit longer than expected, however, things are starting to look a bit less stressful and a tad more in sync. Shed the fat and move on.

Going to the Madonna concert in November with my pretty little brother, envy me. Hehe, So, guess that means I'll be seeing those of you who actually wanna see me for a few days around Thanksgiving. (And yes Booby, I am learning the lyrics so I won't embarrass you...)

Personally, feeling a bit better,... 
Let's see, size 3, haven't fainted repeatedly since that one day, haven't gotten sick for no reason, cut back on the excess vices. Chika-Chika- Yay me. Now let's see if I can start fitting exercise back into my schedule again. I am in desperate need for a haircut, but I only trust one other person with my hair and unfortunately Alex can't travel with me everywhere. -sad face-

I think that's enough for now. For you guys I haven't called in a while, I'm trying to kit REALLY, I'm sorry yet again. MAD love. -mua-
Ciao darlings.

Lala Land [08 Aug 2008|01:56pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Once again, back in my hometown. Sorry if I missed you, or didn't get to say Bye, yet again but know thay I love you.

School starts the day I turn 19, with oodles more knowledge a handful of friends left, and happy as can be, I'm done with all the drama, the bull, the endless backroads of stupidities. 
Now let's just see if someone will hire a girl with no expirience, eek... crossing my fingers.


A thought process [13 Apr 2008|03:21pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I'm attempting to take a hold of my life, I'm growing up more in these past few months than I have in the last year. I'm pushing myself to grab hold of a dream that, to be quite honest, must be the stupidest idea I've ever had. Moving out won't be easy. Getting a job would be the first step. I need to focus, I need to step it up, and to get where I can even start to be where I see myself getting started, I need to get the heck out, I need to do it on my own.

Just never thought I'd be this alone.

"LA is the loneliest & most brutal of American cities;...LA is a jungle."
-Jack Kerouac, On the Road.


Home again. [05 Apr 2008|01:08am]
[ mood | blah ]

So we'll see how it goes, & when this year proves me right, I won't throw it in your face.

I'm back home, in LA, can't wait for summer already, I need a beach day. Spring Break was kick ASS.


Update. Sort of. [17 Feb 2008|05:29pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Some people are just too funny. And others just all around seem to dissappoint.

So, I can't remember the last time I got sick, but this weekend hasn't been all that fun lying in bed & tossing back Nyquil. You start realizing just how alone you are, Yey...

I went to a show at the Troubadour last Wednesday, Go me. I was surprised the bands were actually pretty sweet. Miami's local scene so doesn't compare. (Except maybe Ozium ;-) )  Oh & I tried Pinkberry for the first time, absolute yum. Anyone who allows me to put Cap'n Crunch in frozen yogurt gets points with me. Hehe.

Keeping in touch with people, a bit harder than I thought, but I'm trying. Some of you should do the same.

School's great, joined this Film Association, that's going pretty swell. Figures I'd make friends with the Film guys first lol
Some things don't change I guess.

All my <3 to you guys! Miss most of you like crazy! You know who you are.

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He's what?! [22 Jan 2008|08:16pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

What the heck is wrong with this world?!

-sad face-

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Over it. [05 Jan 2008|08:57pm]
[ mood | kind of annoyed ]

So, it's funny I guess I should be used to this by now.
Wait, no, scratch that, I shouldn't have to get used to anything, I'm over it, I've been over it.

Seriously, get the fuck over my life.

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2007, today doesn't feel like New Year's Eve... [31 Dec 2007|08:32pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? A few things :oP

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Sort of, towards the end, I started to & I did lose weight but I’m such a yo-yo.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My cousin Vanessa, she had a little Sophia

4. Did anyone close to you die? Can’t remember.

5. What countries did you visit? Nicaragua.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? Progress, an Acting job.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The month of December, plenty of reasons, I know why.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Not being such a wuss & just going for it.

9. What was your biggest failure? School, or lack there of it.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I got a few colds, a few bruises, totally worth.

11. What was the best thing you bought? For myself…Harry Potter book, No! Wait, Peppers tickets.

14. Where did most of your money go? Food, posters, clothes.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Trip back to Miami, and Red Hot Chili Pepper Concert .

16. What songs will always remind you of 2007? The Promise, World Hold On.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
A)Happier or sadder – Happier with myself.
B)Older or wiser – Both.
C)Thinner or fatter- Fatter? I don’t really remember.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Enjoyed the little moments, spent time with the best people I’ve ever known, oh and concerts most def.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Wasted time.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? I spent it with my Dad’s side of the family here in LA, eating.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007? You could say that.

24. What was your favorite TV program? Heroes and The Office.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate anyone.

26. What was the best book you read? Harry Potter Book 7.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Arctic Monkeys or The Sounds

28. What did you want and get? Peace.

29. What did you want and not get? A sense of accomplishment.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? Juno. It is so boss.

31. What did you do on your birthday? Went clubbing with some pretty totty people.

32. What was the best part of your summer? Considering my summer was extended, the part where I became closer friends with people.

33. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Made it down to my preferable weight and said or done some things long before I actually did.

34. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? Very me, as usual, Simple & kickass.

35. What kept you sane? Nothing, lol my best friend.

36. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? …Fancy? John Krasinski.

37. What political issue stirred you the most? None, I never really paid much attention.

38. Who did you miss? Gabe, Pat, Brian, Pao, Kristen, Mike, Stevie.

39. Who was the best new person you met? Does someone I Re-met count?

40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: A person needs to love themselves before they can be with someone and let them love you back. And the only person you can depend on is yourself.

41. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: Ooh, toughy…

“Will I ever get to
to where it is that I am going?
Will I ever follow through with what I,
with what I had planned?
I guess it's possible that I have been a bit distracted
and the directions for me are a lot less in demand.
In demand.
Will I ever get to where I'm going?
If I do, will I know when I'm there?
If the wind blew me in the right direction
Would I even care?
I would.
I take a look around; it's evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved,
Improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can't seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I'm going nowhere...
Really fucking fast”

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smile [16 Dec 2007|03:54am]
[ mood | euphoric ]

I feel, awesome amazing, rad, cold, soft, happy, SWEET, ...


-edit- I found the word I was looking for and lost it again.

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Change is good. [12 Dec 2007|02:05pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

Thanks Alex.

I'm looking forward to this. Future, here I come.

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Oh,oh, how could [I] do it? [08 Dec 2007|04:15pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I think life's gonna be better from here on out. It was good, I was comfortable, but I need more. I'm selfish, I'm cold, I'm not everything I was supposed to be or expected to be. But things won't just look better, they will be better in the end. So, thank you.
Anyway, I definitely hope so, maybe this time around, I can leave with a clear mind, set out and conquer my life. Or maybe that's just the teenager in me talking. Whatever the outcome,...

I know you & I are going to be Okay.


This is Halloween [17 Oct 2007|11:21pm]
[ mood | Ponder ponder ]

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

What to be?!?!

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[01 Oct 2007|09:22pm]
Prrrr! Prrrr! Prrrr!


Spice Girls ♥
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the old man is snoring... [22 Sep 2007|03:13am]
[ mood | can't wait. ]

It's raining.

I've always loved the sound of rain on a tin roof, wearing long pjs and falling asleep on a cold pillow.

So, I still haven't gotten my cell phone, WORKING ON IT. But for those of you who love me enough, let's hang out when I get there!!

A few questions:

Where's my sister?
If I ask Mike to dance for me, will he?
Should I get white bangs?
Why have I been having THE weirdest dreams of all time?

And last, are all couches that bad to sleep on?

Think about it. Love ya - m.

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Jetblue is ♥ [10 Sep 2007|11:18pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Long Beach, CA (LGB) to FT Lauderdale, FL (FLL)
Tuesday, 02 Oct 07
Flight 243


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Less. [30 Aug 2007|09:07pm]
Britney Spears' new single is empty & repetative.

But then again, it's Britney right?
...................................Hit me baby, one more time.
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[28 Aug 2007|01:56pm]
I miss you.
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